Cloverfield

Amazing - and thought provoking.

I find so many things I am experiencing at the moment tied together by themes. The ending of this film fit right in to the focus of the book I am reading and the things I am feeling about life as a whole.

Cloverfield is a horror film and a love story of sorts. It managed to boil down "life" into a few hours. It was painful to watch, but easy to understand. We would do what the characters in this film did. We would experience what they did. That's what makes it a great film. It was an unreal situation, but it was a real response.

When faced with life or death situations - we all reach out to our loved ones - because there is nothing more important to each of us than love.  We long to be loved and we need to let those we love know we love them. The stronger the connection, the more compelled we feel to express it.

What if I knew my world was ending. Where would I want to be? What would I want to say?

It's such a horrific "what if" but the answer is comforting. I would want to be with Ben and I would want to tell him I loved him. If I could be with my children as well, I would and I would tell them I loved them - and my friends - and my family. But for me, that one deep in my gut feeling is to be with Ben until there is no more.

He posted a new song of NIN on his vox - Lights in the Sky. We were talking about the song, and how beautiful it is. I asked what it was about. Was it about the death of a loved one? Ben would not give meaning to Trent's words. Instead he looked at me and said "I will be by your side forever. I will be with you till the end." Now - that's what I hear when I listen to that song.

I hear "I love you." 
It gives me peace.